'What I did was very wrong,' Ontario woman who faked pregnancies with many doulas tells sentencing court

WARNING: This article contains details of sexual assault and suicidal ideation,and may affect those who have experienced them or know someone affected by them.

An Ontario woman who faked pregnancies and fraudulentlysoughtthe help of numerous doulaswas in tears at her sentencing hearing Wednesday as she took fullaccountabilityfor"the hurt and the pain" she hascaused.

Kaitlyn Braun spoke after over a dozen doulas who said they were traumatized and financially set back by the 25-year-old's actions gave victim impact statements in Brantford's Court of Justice.

"I know that the words I speak today do not take back what I didand that they don't automatically create healing. However, it is my hope that my words, along with my plan of action, show that I'm a changed person," Braun said from inside the prisoner's box.

"What I did was ultimately very wrong, and I feel a strong sense of shame when I think of the hurt and the pain that I've caused. I never wanted to be the person I became."

Braun pleadedguiltylast month to21 charges includingfraud, indecent acts, false pretences and mischief of the 52 she faced. The one-day hearing was told she'll receive her sentence on Feb. 14 in Brantford.

Adoulais atrained professional who supports clients before, during and shortly after childbirth. They also help with grief and trauma around pregnancy loss, but they're not health-care professionals who deliver babies and they don't have access to medical records or equipment. While doulas have certifications with different organizations, they are not registered with a regulating or governing body.

A publication ban thatprotected the identities of 17 doulas in the case is no longer in place for 12of them.

Braun was first arrested in March after seeking the helpofdoulasin what ended up being false pregnancies and stillbirths, from June 2022 to February 2023.

Braun also pleaded guilty to mischief for making a false statement to a Brantford police officer in February, accusing someone else of the offences to misleadthe investigation. She has been in custody sinceher arrest.

'This crime has ruined me,' says victim

In her victim impact statement, London doula Seanna Hayes said she was "utterly drained and emotionally defeated," adding thatBraun was her first-ever client.

"Since my time with Ms. Braun, I'm fearful of new clients. I'm now less trusting of those seeking out doula support. This is unacceptable to me as someone who wants to give the best support to people."

Braun, wearing a purple sweater and glasses and inhandcuffs, looked down the entire time her victims' statements were being heard.

The doulas, who either spoke or had their victim impact statements read out for them, said the ordeal with Braun has left them feeling violated. Some of themsaid theirfamilies have also been impacted, as they've had to spend time away from their young children to work with Braun.

Many doulassaid they've changed the way they take onnew clients and how they advertise their businesses.

Hayessaid she has added a "false pretense" clause in her contract, and no longer offers virtual supportor any free services.

"Kaitlyn Braun has made me afraid of doing the work I'm so passionate about. I'm afraid of gaining new clients and being triggered at birth," she said. "This crime has ruined me."

Another London doula, Amy Silva, told the sentencing hearingthat she lost about$6,000by working with Braun and as a result of therapy costs.

"The safety measuresI've had to implement reflect a genuine fear instilled in me by your actions, Kaitlyn," Silva said while looking directly at Braun.

Sentencing deferred for a month

JusticeRobertGee said he needs more time to reflect on the joint submission the Crown and defence have put forward: that Braun receive a two-year conditional sentence.

If accepted, it would put Braun on housearrestfor the two years, with certain exceptions. It would be followed by a three-year probation duringwhich Braun would have to receive therapy. The defence and Crown are alsorequesting that the 10 months Braun has already spent in custody notbe included in thesentence.

The lawyers shared with the court Braun'slong history of mental health challenges, includingmemories of childhood sexual assault, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and bipolar and borderline tendencies.

Braun's health records indicate a history of suicidalideationand almost 200 hospital visits from 2006 up until her arrest in March,Crown attorneyJoshua Mociak told Gee.

"The submission speaks to mental health diagnoses and significant loneliness. I don't think anyone can answer why she did this," Braun's lawyer, Alison Macdonald,told reporters outside the court.

"She has been beat up twice in custody, so it's a suffering to be in custody now anywhere when you're awaiting sentencing.It's not easy for anybody. She's never been in jail before, she has no record and she's a young woman."

Braunalso told the hearing that her time in custody gave her an opportunity to reflect on her actions and decide the kind of person she wants to be now. She is willing to participate in any form of counselling the court orders her to and believes she can get more support outside of custody.

The remaining charges thatBraun hasn't pleaded guilty to, includingsexual assault, will be dropped once Geehands downhersentence.

Help resources

For anyone who has been sexually assaulted,support is available through crisis lines and local support services via this government of Canada website or the Ending Violence Association of Canada database. If you're in immediate danger or fear for your safety or that of others around you, please call 911.

For anyone struggling with their mental health,help is available through:

• Canada's Suicide Crisis Helpline: Call or text 988.
• Kids Help Phone: 1-800-668-6868. Text 686868. Live chat counselling on the website.
• Canadian Association for Suicide Prevention: Find a 24-hour crisis centre.

This guide from the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health outlines how to talk about suicide with someone you're worried about.